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hey

I would rather say this to you in person or on the phone, but since you are asleep by now and this cant wait, the email has to do

 

Ive been giving this situation a lot of thought lately, especially since the situation that was created over the weekend, and i really dont think this will work. the thing is i wasnt sure how you felt untill now, and now i do.  I was kind of trying to hint at it on wendsday, but you kept saying it was upto me and im sooo bad with confrontations, so i was like ok, cant do this right now...what i wanted to tell you then, was that after hanging out i dont think we have enough in common to make a romantic connection, which really sucks b/c i do like and respect you and i think as a couple we would look really great and make everyone jelous

 

the problem is, that you have turned out to be completely different than i imagined, im not saying that as a negetivist, rather that how and who you are, is not what i want in a boyfriend. I find you quite intelligent and im sure you find me amusing, but i dont think thats enough, for me at least

we do make cool friends, and i do think we would have more fun as friends. i mean during the whole thing with diana, we talked more and communicated more than we do now, and i had more fun with you

during this past 3 weeks i have tried to make it work, and i did think that i could make it work, but as of this week my fears have been continuously confirmed, we are TOO different for it to work. i still think your hot, and probably will in the future, but i also know that us as a unit:"we" cant work out. i dont really feel like forcing someone into something, and honestly thats how ive felt with this relationship

 

must admit that the whole "he is ignoring me" thing kept me intrigued for a while, and thats why i continued this thing, in hopes of making it better. but turns out this isnt just a game, this is actually how you are (which is totally cool), and that kind of behavior, in a "relationship"  is not good enough for me. i need attention and i need someone who WANTS to spend time with me, and MAKES time to see me, not someone who has to be FORCED/COERCED to spend time with me

 

considering im going to iran, i really see no use of continuing what we have with the lable of a relationship". i mean, if we are honest to ourselves the lable of boyfriend/girlfriend is not suitable for what we have going on between us(romantic wise), which is close to nothing

 

although i dont think we work out as a couple, i do think we could make cool friends. thats how it should be. as u said in the begining "lets just be friends and do things that friends do". we should have listened to your advice, but hey, we gave it a run, and it didnt work. at least now we know! the good thing is no one is attached and no one is getting hurt

 

Im pretty sure this "friends"thing will work out, no commitments, no expectations, no obligations, easy, breasy, cover girl(its a cover girl commercial)  i totally enjoy sitting there and judging people with you as a friend, but as a girlfriend i kind of feel a need to be jelous and angry and hurt, and thats a role i really dont feel like playing. to think about it, i think we should hold weekly sessions of just sitting infront of VARY HALL and judgin ppls asses and bosoms...seriously though, i have a couple of cool books you could borrow, and im still holding you on that Chafia you promised me

 

so, go out tommorrow, have fun with your friends and maybe go to MANGO in Yorkdale and check out that palestenian chick i told you about

 

till later

 

me

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